hello-eeveev
can we. can we talk about how in the final lucien fight, Essek failed to resist the slow effect from one of the eyes (he rolled two natural 1s in a row). canonically, he was weighed down with with so much shame and guilt that he could barely move—the same guilt that he is seriously considering going back in time to undo—and he didn’t use his fortune’s favor reroll to try to alleviate it.
but he did expend his mote of possibility when he struggled to pull Caleb out from under a building. no hesitation.
so. so. was he saving his fortune’s favor for the mighty nein? had he already decided not to use it for himself?
homeboy really said “I would break the world to undo my sins, but I will bear them if it means you survive.”